Revisiting the Past

In late July 2014, a nurse wheeled me, with empty arms, past happy moms with babies, through the hospital, and out to where Matt was waiting with the car. I carefully stepped into the van and sat, waiting on Matt... Continue reading →

Grief

The last week and a half seems to have been shadowed by death. It began with the tragic and unexpected death of a dear friend’s baby and was followed several days later by the passing of my uncle. The circumstances... Continue reading →

And so it begins again…

It was a warm day in early November. Mark and I were in the kitchen reading books about Thanksgiving. The last page described how the town brought the firefighters Thanksgiving dinner when the firefighters became too busy to prepare their... Continue reading →

Cuddle Time

Last week, our little town had a Halloween festival where all the local businesses handed out candy. Mark can’t walk and doesn’t eat candy, so we mostly played on the swings and grass. At one point, I observed a child... Continue reading →

How He Loves Us

There is a lot of prayer involved in parenting. Please, God, let him fall back asleep because it is 3am, and I don’t want to get up again. Please, God, help him entertain himself for five minutes so I can... Continue reading →

You Are So Loved

Dear Mark, I’ve never cared much for Valentine’s Day. It has always seemed like a made up “holiday.” Admittedly, it is a nice excuse to get dressed up and go out for a fancy dinner, but until last year, it... Continue reading →

Deja Vu

This morning, I swayed around the room with Mark as he looked contently over my shoulder. I think he was so exhausted from the last two weeks that he was happy to just sit in my arms and look around... Continue reading →

Time Stood Still

Dear Mark, You are a good sleeper. Normally. However, last night at 3:30am, after a diaper blowout that resulted in new pajamas, you decided that you were awake. For a solid hour I rocked, swayed, and bounced all over the... Continue reading →

While He Sleeps

Believe it or not, I’ve written two blog posts in the last month that never made it to the publishing stage. Mark keeps me pretty busy most days, and I consider myself lucky on mornings afternoons that I get to... Continue reading →

Grocery Store Woes

This blog entry was actually written almost two weeks ago. I know that this may be surprising, but I haven’t had a chance to post it until this evening. :) Dear Mark, I’d like to tell you about your very... Continue reading →