infant loss

Together

Today I spoke with someone who shared stories of two women who recently lost babies. Perhaps it was a providential conversation because today, October 15, is the day we remember all babies who we have lost. I haven’t been active... Continue reading →

Revisiting the Past

In late July 2014, a nurse wheeled me, with empty arms, past happy moms with babies, through the hospital, and out to where Matt was waiting with the car. I carefully stepped into the van and sat, waiting on Matt... Continue reading →

Grief

The last week and a half seems to have been shadowed by death. It began with the tragic and unexpected death of a dear friend’s baby and was followed several days later by the passing of my uncle. The circumstances... Continue reading →

A Loud Message

Last week, Mark was the “star student” at preschool. One of the requirements was an “All About Me” survey. Mark and I sat at the kitchen table and filled it out together. Mark was very excited to answer the questions.... Continue reading →

The Man at the Grocery Store

I recently took Mark to the grocery store while Arthur hung out at home with Matt. Mark giggled and joked with me as we walked, hand-in-hand across the parking lot towards the store. As we neared the entrance, a man... Continue reading →

Embrace the Change

Mark will always be my rainbow baby – the baby who came after the storm of losing a child. He brought hope during a time that I questioned God, and he reminded me that I could be happy again. With... Continue reading →

Introducing…

Both boys are actually napping at the same time – a luxury that seems to rarely happen. I figured I would spend a few minutes dusting off the blog now that I am beginning to find my bearings with two... Continue reading →